Sometimes one doesn't realize what good a "walk" or a "run" alone with oneself can do...life's not going great these days....my day today just did not go as planned...by the time it was twilight...i was feeling completely drained out!!...at that time i just got up and decided to head to sirifort sports complex for a run...when i stepped out of my house...it was cold and chilly...i stopped for 5 seconds nd thought that sitting at home and reading was a better option...but then suddenly decided to go ahead with my plan...as i reached there and started to run....i felt weird for about half a km (its a one km track out there)....the wind seemed like a storm...trying to break me with all its power...the whislting noices from the trees sounded like ghosts running after me trying to scare me away....but slowly as i moved ahead....the stress seemed to be coming out of my system...i began to notice the ppl running with me...doesnt mean i was checking them out :-p....but just observing them....they all seemed like identical versions of mine...with their own set of difficulties nd problems...thats when i felt that i was running in a marathon...a marathon called life...i didn't know at that time whether i shall win or loose...but i certainly knew that i needed to be out there and face everything while keeping my strength intact....at the end of the run...i stopped for 5 minutes and gazed at the the entire scene that was right there is front of me....i felt rejuvenated...every1's life is tough in their own different ways...so don't ever compare your life to others...you have no idea about what their journey is all about :)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I was sitting and wondering the other day…what can you best compare a relationship with??...yeah I was quite inactive over the weekend…so just entered into a thought process...and then I came to the conclusion that “it”…the relationship I mean…can best be compared to a "perfume"… …now see we have all had one favorite perfume at some stage in our lives…the one which we have loved the most…the first one…new excitement…new compassion…coming at an early stage in life…an epitome of magic for us….just like the first time we apply a perfume in our growing days…and feel absolutely wonderful about it....I personally feel that all of us overrate it…coz “first” of everything is “first”….its like…the way a woman feels the first time she’s pregnant is much more special than the following times…but that’s not the point here…not many of us are lucky for “it” to be with us for the rest of our lives….in fact if we look around…most of us would be with ppl whom we came across after the first very sad break up!!!
When something goes wrong with the first one…could be anything…like we outgrowing it…or “it” causing irritation…or simply not working out...doesn't make anyone any less than the other….there are many temporary perfumes that keep coming and going…an it’s an easier way to get over the magic of the first one …but the effect of the temporary ones doesn’t last for long…:)
And then suddenly a "special" perfume walks into our lives again…with whom we love spending time…has been with us for the longest after the first one …who likes us and we like it too…technically everything’s fine with it…but we are still not sure of it….its very different from us….at the same time we can’t do without it either….coz it makes us feel secure…has been with us during both good and bad times….and we have shared beautiful moments with it….we know it’s the one we can go to when we are stressed and lonely and it knows us the best…. its like we would rather apply it than anyone else…
Amidst of all this there is one perfume with which we share a wonderful platonic relationship….who clears us of all the bad thoughts….and guides us as a friend and a philosopher…it’s just probably the shortest distance away….
Then finally as we mature with time…we come to terms with the “final” one…the perfume which we decide will stay with us for the rest of ur lives….we will never let ourselves outgrow it…even if its imperfect many times or there are certain things that we find wrong in it…we accept it for what it is….that would be our life long perfume…errr relationship…leaving all other perfumes to be just our friends…but the “life long” one being our “life partner”….but then again…that life long might be the “first” one, the chances of which are very bleak…or the “special” one…or even the “platonic” one in some cases…
Now it makes me wonder…how do we identify the “life long” one?? what would I want to do?? My question here is…is it more important to act from the mind sometimes or from the heart always??….I am myself confused….I would probably not let the “special” one go coz it would have come across me at a much more matured stage of life :)…I would be understanding it much better…it might call for some effort from both ends…but I m sure slowly and steadily we would fall in love with it…its important to work towards it though…me thinks its much better than investing effort in knowing a completely new one all together :)
On the contrary if we decide to let the “special” one go…then?? Sounds scary…coz wat if we let it go now….and need it at a later stage...and when we do decide to go back to it...its not available any more :(..Hmmm…the “special” one seems like the safest bet provided we have lost out on the first one ;)….having said that….how about a combination of all of the above….now that would be something interesting ;)…
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I just wanna thank every person of my family nd god for bestowing such a fun loving and wonderful family upon me :) how much i regret today missing the last family trip to Bheemtal in August 2006..remember?? ;)
Saturday, June 7, 2008
There is so much i want to do in the next six months....let me try and list it down here:
- Go for a nice holiday with my family...have been to many trips in recent years but the last "family" trip happened in May 2005.
- To make my social work the "top priority" over weekends.
- To click pictures as and when i am able to take out time :) again courtesy 2007 that I developed an interest in photography :) I even wanna purchase a good camera...my savings are on :D
- Make sure my badminton routines continue and i become better and better in the game :) it helps me burn all my work stress.
- To decide on my career path and goals.
- To make reading ET a regular habit. However much i try i end up missing it on several days :(
- To read a few interesting books. My avearge this year has been pretty bad. Have only managed to finish five books till now :( which means not even one a month :(
- And to try and win on some lost situations of 2007 :) with a positive attitude and a strong belief :)
Its difficult to say how much of the above will be possible as six months is not much time; given the pace at which the year has moved so far...but i just hope I am able to fulfill all of them :) and these are not in any order of priroty...the last few might just be the most important ;)
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Today i visited the Nehru camp...a slum area in east delhi...several parents came and surrounded me there...throwing questions about their child's admission...The govt norms allow for a 10% quota (announced in 2005) in close to 397 public schools around delhi to provide education to the children of this part of the society.
Is it enough to merely lay such a "quota" on paper....or is it also essential to justify this provision??....while a lot of parents did manage to get their kids admitted in the initial years of the announcement...the situation seems to have become out of control now...to the extent that the parents are given application forms and charged a whopping Rs 1,000 per form...yet told at that very instance that their child will not be admitted!!! i mean how worse can it get from here!!!...the 10% reservation goes in satiating the needs of the kids of staff members...or of rich class...who perhaps are ready to flush in some extra bucks...
Look at the irony...parents are willing to save money...starve themselves....make all the compromises...for that one hope...but their enthusiasm is crushed by such intricate circumstances...I really do not know how are we going to handle this....but our team is certainly fighting for it...the only consolation being...that if there were no such promises, these would be mere content people and if promises existed but no consequent breaches, then today i wouldn’t have been a part of making a difference!!!
Friday, May 9, 2008
First the word that i had longed to be with me...finally...got attached to me...the word "senior"...as i got promoted to the post of "senior research analyst"...today i feel "big"...if u luk at it...its just a seven letter word...but for me it means much more...there is so much of added responsibility that it brings with it...that my company feels i m worth taking on my shoulders...i hope i m able to live upto it :)
The third...was today...for my dearest mom...on the ocassion of Mothers Day...just a small surprise from me and my sister at her favourite restaurant "sagar ratna"...she hardly gets to go there...courtesy my dad...who is a hard core non-vegetarian while mom is strictly vegetarian...so mom's dinner proposals to sagar ratna are usually knocked down in front of dad's non veg extravaganza :)...i hope he doesn't get to read this :-p...so today was actually her day as she got to eat at her favourite place after a looonggg time...nothing lavish...just plain and simple...but as she rightly says "its only and only the thought that counts" :)
So all in all a great week :)